I'm about to sound really bitchy

FUCK LOVE.

That's right, love does not exist....it just doesn't...Men are jerks, arrogant assholes, and scumbags who deserve to rot in hell...

Ha....ugh...heres what happened...

I started dating this guy, his name was John...we (I thought) hit it off really well, we had fun, I loved his dog Riley we had a good time at the cookout he brought me to...we were having a really good time together and I really liked him, he was funny, and educated and he seemed to have his head on straight....so I thought.

While we were dating (unofficially) his grandmother passed away, and I would tell him almost on a daily basis that I was there for him and if he needed anything I was there and I can help him cause I was just in his shoes in February of this past year, so I knew what he was going though. So I gave him time to heal from that and get his shit together, and I would still text about every other day to see if he wanted to hang out and go do something, maybe get his mind off things. I didn't get a reply back for about a week. So on Sunday night I texted him and told him that everyday he looses a little more of me and to not be surprised when he looks to find me and im not there...he FINALLY replied and told me that he found someone else and that he didnt want to see me anymore....well thanks for telling me asshole...I had been turning guys away for dates cause I wanted to spend time with you and you told me that you wanted to hang out and see where things go, so I believed you! Well we had a LOVELY (sarcastic) texting conversation about how he didn't think I was that interested so he decided to find someone else...HA, cause texting you every other day doesn't seem interested....I wish you all could read the text conversation because I cant even describe the MASSIVE amount of BS that came out of his assholes mouth....anyway he told me that he was sorry and that he wanted to try again and that he was going though a hard time thats why he didnt reply to me (bullshit bullshit bullshit) but I went with my gut and said that I wanted nothing to do with him and that I suggest that he delete me from his contact because I didnt want to hear from him ever again...and I felt pretty good about myself for standing my ground...

The next day I get a text from; you guessed it, John....he wanted a second chance and that if I gave it to him I wouldn't regret it and that he will let me in and talk to me and be there for me (basically said all the right things to me) all that fun stuff so nieve little me....I decided to give him a second chance...and for the first 3 days it was good, he would text and call me, everything was peachy keen...he asked when he could see me and I told him thursday would be best and so he came over last night...I made him a nice dinner we watched a movie we cuddled, everything was nice...he left around 11pm...I texted him the next morning wishing him a good day, I didnt get a response, so I texted about 6 hours later asking how his day was....no answer....then I texted a few hours later wishing him good night and that I would see him saturday (cause we had plans)...well...got an answer that time..."I cant see you anymore...I found someone else, im happy, leave me a lone".....uh...ouch for the second time!! you told me, and gave ME YOUR WORD you wouldnt make me regret this decision to give you a second chance...and yet here I am again, clobbered for the 2nd time in a week....I feel so good about myself now...I feel like I will never be appreciated...ever...I dont trust men...All I want to know...what the hell did I do to get treated like this...I would like to know so I NEVER do it again...cause I dont deserve this. at all. :'(

Formal Pinning

Sorry I haven't posted a new blog! It's been a crazy few days however Phi Mu Pi Chapter has gotten 16 new Phi's <3 :) We need one more to reach cap! SO excited!!! Heres a few pictures :D

Phi Mu Pi Chapter, University of Maine at Orono <3

Throw what you know! :D

Fall 2012, Phis (missing 2)

All Greek BBQ!

Well! Its recruitment week! :D I am very excited to get more gorgeous sisters added to Phi Mu :)

Met a few potential new members :) I can't wait to get to know them better. I think I already found a rush crush! haha oh well! I usually have a few each year so I'm bound to get one! 

I am a sister of UMaine Phi Mu Pi Chapter, this is a picture of my chapter *most of them, not all were in attendance*

Just a picture of us after one of our ceremonies in our chapter room :) 

I love my girls! I'm very excited <3 

Why People on Facebook Have Been Pissing Me Off

      For about the past month of so I have been getting an absurd amount of friend requests on Facebook, none from anyone that I know, have known, or even that I have ever met. Some from the same state as me, some from across the country, and some from even other countries who somehow came across my profile and decided to send me a friend request. 1 was from California...I don't know ANYONE in California. One of them, in their about me; all it says is "where the single girls at?"...Here's the problem with this...you're looking for a relationship on FACEBOOK....How desperate are you? In his "profession" it states hes a model....while I may believe this cause he looked like one, he also looked like he was 12....I'm 22....get back to me when you live in my state and look like you're 25-27...maybe then ill be interested....As if that weren't bad enough, I send him a message asking "do I know you?" Maybe I just forgot who he was, maybe I met him somewhere who knows, so I message him asking how I know him, and he never answered...WHAT IS THE POINT OF ADDING SOMEONE ON FACEBOOK IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO ANSWER THEIR MESSAGES?! this is not a popularity contest people!!! GET OVER YOURSELVES!
     Another one was from Indiana, he was a legit person unlike the underage looking model in the first paragraph. In his about me he said that he used to live in Cali and used to model (what the hell is with all the models???) however he moved back to his home state after finding a brain tumor...while I can empathize with your situation and I am VERY sorry to hear that you have a brain tumor, you ALSO state you are looking for a girl who can see past you having cancer and are looking for a relationship...why are people looking for a relationship on Facebook?? I don't live in Indiana either, get back to me when you're living in Maine, even if you have cancer, you're still cute....So, once again, maybe I forgot how I met this guy, if I ever met him, and I message him the same thing as the other guy..."do I know you?"....no answer...HELLO!? Do people just go around adding random people on Facebook that they may be interested in having a long distance relationship with? I feel like that's really sketchy...
     While having people from your own country add you on Facebook even though you never met them before is creepy, when people from OTHER countries do it is REALLY weird...When I used to work for Dr. Largey they had their own Facebook page and so since I worked there I decided I would like their Facebook page and they wanted us to post dental information in it on a daily basis...I didn't do it on a daily basis, but I did do it on occasion...last week this guy from India sends me a friend request...I'm like...wtf? I have A. Never been to India and B. Never been anywhere other than the Caribbean...So again, I message him asking how I knew him...FINALLY he replied and said that he was a fan of my page and that I was the most gorgeous doctor he has ever seen and would be honored if I would send him information about Oral Surgery Schools in the US...Yeah. I'm not the doctor...I was just his bitch...so I told him that and he was still trying to get me to tell him about schools in the US for Oral Surgery. (PS. this was after the people that work there screwed me over by revoking my paid vacation) So out of spite I decided to give him the office phone number, both of their names and their E-Mails so maybe he can bombard them with calls and E-Mails...So what is the lesson in THIS scenario? Don't screw me over by taking away my hard earned money, I could make your life miserable.
     The next one was a girl who goes to college in the same area as me however she goes to a different college...I got a friend request from her and said we had 1 mutual friend...we didn't have any mutual friends...So I waited a few days, maybe I would finally remember how I knew this girl....come to find out, she is dating my ex-boyfriend of a year...what good can come of adding your boyfriends ex on Facebook? I cant think of any good...So, I messaged her and asked her how we knew each other...once again never got a reply...
     WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE!? Common courtesy, just message me back you idiots! And if we have never met than what is the point of trying to add me to be a Facebook friend when we aren't even friends in real life....that shit makes me bat-shit crazy.

That felt good to rant about that. I got to go make dinner with some sorority sisters now...I feel better.

Why do I only attract mean guys??

     I have really been pondering why I tend to date really jerky guys...I must just attract them like a magnet...My first boyfriend ever we dated for 3 years, and he lied for all three years about doing drugs...I was nieve and in high school so I really blame myself for that one I should have seen the signs....second boyfriend, he actually was nice however he had to move to Seattle to work for Microsoft...that didn't work out...next up was in college...he was a senior and I was a freshman, technically we didn't even date...we had maybe 1 or 2 dates and just hung out, and about a month into my first semester of my first year of college he wanted to officially be together...it was WAY too early to be in a relationship so new in college...so I said no I need some time, well about 2 months later I thought it would be nice if we got together officially, so I called him to tell him but he said he had already found someone else. (PS. were now best friends and work in the same building, and he does most of my handyman work :) ) The next one we dated for a while, over a year, he ended up becoming really distant, and he was back to living with his mother, and one time poked me repeatedly on my bare ass with a fork...yeah that was my last straw...After that I dated a guy for about 6 months and he ended up breaking up with me over Facebook, but the kicker? He didn't even tell me we were broken up, he just deleted me and made his profile private so I couldn't even find him...yeah...that was mature! The next guy on my list was never an official boyfriend, however I have had a crush on him for over a year and hes one of the nicest guys when hes not around his friends....if hes around his friends however...you can forget it, hes an ass.
     WHY DO GUYS DO THIS!? Why act all douche-baggy around your "bros" when that's not even who you are...do you not want your "bros" to see that you're actually a caring individual? Cause I find that trait to be rather alluring....It's honestly a mystery to me...
     So, hopefully this new guy I am dating is a good guy and doesn't turn into a douche bag, however according to my lovely track record, its bound to happen. :( so sad....

So lets make this easy for guys

Here is a pretty accurate list of what we want:

1. surprises...we love to be surprised...whether it be flowers, chocolate, you cook us dinner...whatever...surprise us.

2. We want you to WANT to help us, even if we don't accept the help, just want to help us so we know you care.

3. Make us laugh...whatever means possible

4. Stop critiquing our clothes...just stop. Most of us know what were doing, just say we look good so we can go wherever were going.

5. Honesty...surprise right?

6. Stop rushing us out the door...we need to do our makeup and hair...so if you say we should do something tonight, at least give us an hour before were supposed to be there. 

7. Watch a movie with us...REALLY watch a movie, not try to make out with us in the middle of our favorite movie, no matter how many times we have seen it.

8. Cuddle...I know, what a painful word to hear right? JUST DO IT.

9. Be Spontaneous.

10. Love us for who we are...none of us are perfect...we have our flaws, don't point them out to us...if you love us, then you're going to have to love the flaws too.

11. Accept the fact that your girlfriend has planned her dream wedding since she was 12...does that mean shes thinking shes already going to marry you? Not at all: however, we have our dream wedding planned to the "T". Get over it.

12. Family is important, make a good impression...

That pretty much sums up what most females want...I know that's what I want...however I'm too busy dating douche bags to find one of these fine men....

There's another rant for you...I might be back tomorrow with another one if I can find something to rant about...maybe how rude people are on Facebook...that might be a good one :) 

My New Job and Why I have to go an extra semester at UMaine

I made it through my first week of my new job! (Hoorayyyy!) I love it SOOOO much more than the Patient Care Coordinator job I had for the past year...SO much better. I am actually appreciated at my new job! Which is amazing, I'm not just treated like the "hired help". The first week was easy because the Lawyer I work for now, wasn't in the office, so there was no commotion going on. Monday will be a whole different story because he will have to go to court and we will have mediation hearings and will signings, it will be kind of a clusterfuck, but I am excited nonetheless.
Classes start in a little over a week....Senior year + 1 semester!....its a conspiracy, Ill tell you why...last semester I was supposed to take a class which I have to take before I can take 3 other classes, it is a pre-requisite...but I was not able to get into the class because it was full, so I went to two or three of the classes just in case anyone dropped I was going to take up that seat in a heartbeat...well nobody dropped and the professor would not let another person take the class above the limit of students...so I sucked it up and I said, ok well Ill just have to take this class next semester...so when it came time to choose my classes for this semester coming I met with my advisor and he asked me why I didn't take this certain class, and I said it was full and then nobody dropped so I want to take it this semester....well. To my surprise, the class is ONLY offered in the spring of each year...meaning, this prerequisite class that I need to take so I can take my last 3 classes for my major will ONLY be offered in the spring of 2013 which is when I am supposed to graduate...therefore not allowing me to graduate on time...therefore I will be graduating in December of 2013...HOW AWFUL IS THAT!? It really is a conspiracy! There are so many people I know who are staying for an extra semester and even an extra year because of the schools scheduling of classes...grrr! it makes really really ugly talking about it...I just want to be done with college, have that piece of paper that says I went to college for 4.5 years (when technically its a 4 year program, HA, bullshit). College is just looking to suck more money out of us by not offering classes students need...Not only that, but students have to work to be able to afford college, most of my classes are only offered at 1 certain time in the semester, I cant choose from a list of the same courses that are just offered at different time or day, its either I take this class and not work, OR dont take the class at all and fall even further behind....what the hell!
That was my rant...I need to go cool off now...haha maybe go for a swim...

In light of Michael Phelps...

     According to recent headlines, Michael Phelps could potentially loose his 2012 Summer Olympic gold medals...because he posed for Louis Vuitton's new ad. According to the "rule book" of the Olympic games, Medalists are not allowed to pose or appear in any ad for a non-Olympic sponsor for a certain amount of time.
     This may be the dumbest rule I have ever heard...so what if Louis Vuitton did not sponsor the Olympics? Michael Phelps just happened to get offered a spread from Louis Vuitton...Im not sure where the problem lies?

I am really not sure what the problem is...you have a sexy man in a bathing suit in a tub...I would join him in there, yes I see the Louis Vuitton bag by the tub, but honestly, that is NOT what I'm looking at. 

What woman can honestly resist a sexy man in a suit...so what there is a Louis Vuitton bag by his feet, I apologize but I am also not looking at the bag in this picture.

So obviously, nobody is hurt by these photos, maybe a few horny women, but Magic Mike starring Channing Tatum can fix that...Im also pretty sure that the Olympics did not lose any or much money because Michael Phelps decided to take a sexy bath or be sexy in a suit...I have no problem with this other than the fact that I am also not in the tub or attacking him on that couch. 

Story of my last week in hell

Hey guys,
     I told you yesterday that I was going to write today about a story about why I am on unpaid vacation, so here is my story...
     I worked for an Oral and Maxillofacial Surgeon in Bangor, his name was Dr. Largey. His wife was one of my managers and Sharon was my other manager. I worked there from June 1, 2011 until August 14, 2012. In the beginning it was AWESOME working for them (PS. I was a Patient Care Coordinator...AKA, Receptionist) they were all SO nice and welcomed me with open arms, and I though that this was going to be my job for the rest of my college career...well I was wrong. I would work part time during the school semester, and full time during breaks and the summer. To make a really long story short, the doctors wife started getting REALLY secretive with my manager, would not let me present patients with their oral treatment plans, I basically became her bitch that she could use me whenever she needed some petty thing done. It got really annoying. To make matters worse, the doctor was a really mean person, he would be rude to his wife in front of me, he would call her into his office and scold her, and what REALLY pissed me off, if he was looking for a patient file and it was somewhere on his desk, he would call her in and place it DIRECTLY in front of him cause he would not take the 30 seconds to just look on his desk. UGH! Drove me nuts! So, since I was full time I decided to use my paid vacation, which was approved for August 15 through August 20, paid and approved, everything was a go. Well I ended up getting this job at a Law Office in Brewer as a secretary, which I am PUMPED about, but they wanted me to give my two weeks so I could start at the law firm ASAP. So I gave them my two week notice, but my paid vacation happened to land in the two weeks I gave...which I didn't think was going to be a problem, in Maine its considered wages earned and therefore legally, they need to be paid out whether I was going to stay or go. So I gave my two weeks and everything was hunky-dory but then, about 5 days before my last day my manager (Sharon, whom I love!!!! shes amazing) approached me and said they are revoking my paid vacation...so I was like WTF? Why? So I finished out my stint in hell, and on Wednesday I decided to approach the doctors wife...well she stated that i'm actually part time, not REALLY full time therefore I didn't earn it, she also told me that if I had given 3 weeks notice then they would have honored it....well HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT IF YOU DIDN'T TELL ME!?!?!?!? and basically there was immense amount of BS that came out of her mouth. I hope that she realizes what she did and how this makes her and her practice looks...I wonder if she knows that because she revoked my paid vacation I wont be able to afford my rent or most of my bills? So here I am, on unpaid vacation...bored...waiting for monday to get here so I can go back to work.
     Either way, this is BS and I felt like people should know what I went through so when people get a new job that they get it in writing if they are part time that they DO or DO NOT get paid vacation. My hiring papers state that I do, but its pro-rated, so basically they dangled paid vacation in front of my face, I went to grab it and they pulled it right away....completely rude.
     COMMUNICATION PEOPLE....you must ALWAYS have communication, this place has NONE....I dont recommend this place to anyone....unless you are happy in a bitchy, backstabbing and petty place to work where you are never appreciated.

Introduction to Rachel

Hey all, or to whoever wants to follow my blog I guess...
     My name is Rachel, I am 22 years old and I am a Broadcast Journalism major and French minor at the University of Maine. I am also a sister of Phi Mu Pi Chapter. I am 1 of 3 children in my family; I have an older sister (Rebecca) and a younger brother (Kendall). I grew up in a little town in Maine called Rumford and went to Mountain Valley High School. Starting on Monday I will be a secretary for a lawyer in Brewer, which I am SO pumped for, especially after the last job I had which was a nightmare (that story will come later, I promise, and I also promise it will be entertaining for you...it wasn't for me, but I'm sure you will find entertainment in it)
     My sister lives in Newburyport MA, and works for Go Ahead Tours in Boston. She is a UNH alum of Communications and Theater.
     My brother lives in Orono and also goes to school at the University of Maine for Business Management. He loves to golf and hopes to get into the golf academy after college and maybe own and manage a gold course someday. (That's the last I knew of what he wanted to do, he could have changed his mind...)
     My parents own a B&B back in Rumford, and my dad also works for the paper mill.
     I have a cat, her name is Clover, she is about a year old, and is a calico...and also crazy. I will make sure to post pictures or videos, she's very loving and sweet, but shes also a demon...but I feel like that is how all cats are....

That is Clover, obsessed with boxes...any kind of box, doesn't matter its shape or size, she will find a way to get herself into it.

Anyway, Ill write tomorrow, I am on un-paid vacation (which has to do with the story I was talking about earlier in this blog...ill tell you that story tomorrow)

G'night all!