FUCK LOVE.
That's right, love does not exist....it just doesn't...Men are jerks, arrogant assholes, and scumbags who deserve to rot in hell...
Ha....ugh...heres what happened...
I started dating this guy, his name was John...we (I thought) hit it off really well, we had fun, I loved his dog Riley we had a good time at the cookout he brought me to...we were having a really good time together and I really liked him, he was funny, and educated and he seemed to have his head on straight....so I thought.
While we were dating (unofficially) his grandmother passed away, and I would tell him almost on a daily basis that I was there for him and if he needed anything I was there and I can help him cause I was just in his shoes in February of this past year, so I knew what he was going though. So I gave him time to heal from that and get his shit together, and I would still text about every other day to see if he wanted to hang out and go do something, maybe get his mind off things. I didn't get a reply back for about a week. So on Sunday night I texted him and told him that everyday he looses a little more of me and to not be surprised when he looks to find me and im not there...he FINALLY replied and told me that he found someone else and that he didnt want to see me anymore....well thanks for telling me asshole...I had been turning guys away for dates cause I wanted to spend time with you and you told me that you wanted to hang out and see where things go, so I believed you! Well we had a LOVELY (sarcastic) texting conversation about how he didn't think I was that interested so he decided to find someone else...HA, cause texting you every other day doesn't seem interested....I wish you all could read the text conversation because I cant even describe the MASSIVE amount of BS that came out of his assholes mouth....anyway he told me that he was sorry and that he wanted to try again and that he was going though a hard time thats why he didnt reply to me (bullshit bullshit bullshit) but I went with my gut and said that I wanted nothing to do with him and that I suggest that he delete me from his contact because I didnt want to hear from him ever again...and I felt pretty good about myself for standing my ground...
The next day I get a text from; you guessed it, John....he wanted a second chance and that if I gave it to him I wouldn't regret it and that he will let me in and talk to me and be there for me (basically said all the right things to me) all that fun stuff so nieve little me....I decided to give him a second chance...and for the first 3 days it was good, he would text and call me, everything was peachy keen...he asked when he could see me and I told him thursday would be best and so he came over last night...I made him a nice dinner we watched a movie we cuddled, everything was nice...he left around 11pm...I texted him the next morning wishing him a good day, I didnt get a response, so I texted about 6 hours later asking how his day was....no answer....then I texted a few hours later wishing him good night and that I would see him saturday (cause we had plans)...well...got an answer that time..."I cant see you anymore...I found someone else, im happy, leave me a lone".....uh...ouch for the second time!! you told me, and gave ME YOUR WORD you wouldnt make me regret this decision to give you a second chance...and yet here I am again, clobbered for the 2nd time in a week....I feel so good about myself now...I feel like I will never be appreciated...ever...I dont trust men...All I want to know...what the hell did I do to get treated like this...I would like to know so I NEVER do it again...cause I dont deserve this. at all. :'(
